2016 was a
year where I learned how to be more present in my life. I really struggled for
a moment in time where I was resentful, angry and had a hard time of letting go of the past. I struggled hard with a few coworkers, it
ultimately taught me that if people are destined to be in our lives, they will
stay. If they aren’t or if they complete their purpose, they will move on. That
meant that every challenge I was faced with, I accepted it.
My year came to end with a boss who
was retiring, a coworker who threw me under the bus and accused me of things
that she was actually guilty of and a different coworker who I had been struggling
with for a very long time , we finally had a blow up. A lot of these events that had unfolded left
me feeling very angry and victimized. With my boss retiring, I felt like I
really had no one in my corner and I was ready to call it quits and throw in
the towel.
My angels gently kept telling me, “don’t
quit, just let go.”
This became a reminder for me each and every
day, to just surrender. Let it go. If something upset me, I became aware and
then I repeated my mantra “ just let go.” When past resentments came up, again,
I practiced breathing and told myself “ Let go” It wasn’t easy, The process was
a struggle but I am still here at this job today and I am much happier today.
( Oh yes, one of the coworkers has given
notice shortly after and is no longer with us. As a thank you for being my
greatest obstacle and challenge, I even gave her a going away gift )
How? I
learned to stay in the present and I now have mastered the art of “letting shit
go”
Today, Instead of struggling and getting upset, I remind
myself, If it doesn’t work, let it go. I always ask myself, “ do I speak up? Or
do I let it go?” How I decide which of the later I will do, is how it makes me
feel. If one option leaves me feeling upset , I don’t do it. I totally follow
the subtle emotions that guide me on a daily basis now. I don’t ignore them
anymore and I sure as hell don’t allow myself to go home angry and upset
because the work day is draining.
I learned that I cannot control what goes on
in the outside world. I can’t control how others are going to react. I learned
that I cannot take others insecurities and frustrations on as my on. And I learned the greatest lesson of them
all, when someone puts a target on my back, it’s not because of anything I DID.
The other person has their own issues and their own karma and my job is to just
let that shit go. If I acknowledge their hatred towards me, I give them my
power and life is too short for me to get upset, so let that shit go. I’ve learned to accept to move on and if they
don’t like me, that’s their problem. I live the golden rule and I treat others
as I wish to be treated. I do my best to not send out any negative “Bullets”
(thoughts) because I understand the repercussions.
If you walk
away with anything today, it is that- do not send out negative bullets. People who wish you harm, that is their
karma. Let it go. If you become aware of this, they cannot penetrate your aura.
Their bad energy will return to them. You do not need to do anything in return.
Let the universe handle it. This eye for an eye thing will only make the world
go blind. I know it’s really hard, when you’ve been attacked to not want to
retaliate or have some sense of justice but I promise you, the greater your
struggle with this lesson, the bigger your reward will be when you overcome it.
I never knew how much I struggled with this injustice until I had to face with
it over half a year. This frustration and anger brewed with in me for so long
that finally day, I just blew my gasket. I totally lost it. Part of me was so
embarrassed that I had given so much of my energy to this drama and another
part of me was really sadden and depressed that I had let my power go. I woke up one day and decided I didn’t want
to feel this way anymore and my story changed. The result of that journey is
what you are reading now.
How we trap ourselves
Resentment:
This is the key
ingredient to unhappiness. This is the first step to unwillingness. Unwilling
to accept what is, Unwillingness to make necessary changes, Unwillingness to
accept our own actions. Resentment
contaminates who we are on a soul level. It prevents us from moving forward and
letting go, it keeps us stuck. When we
live with resentment, it prevents us from being in the present moment and enjoy
what is right in front of us.
If you find you have
emotions of anger and hostility, the root cause could be in the past which is
the home of resentment.
Complaining: This is playing the victim card.
Don’t do it. If you hang out with people who like to complain, I suggest you
start keeping your distance because their negativity will drain you. Complaining drains you of your power. It
gives away your ability to manifest a better outcome. Complaining will trap
you, you will become stuck. Don’t do it.
Learn to avoid it all cost, your soul will thank you later. When we complain, we are resisting what is.
We are not accepting what the universe has handed us. We are not empowered to
overcome obstacles designed to empower us.
Stress: Stress arrives when we worry to much about the
future. We don’t stop to appreciate the present moment, we are stuck in the
now, but our minds are stuck in the future. This creates un necessary stress.
When you focus on where you are RIGHT NOW, you can not stress.
Anxiety: This is the fear of the unknown.
Again, worrying about what hasn’t happened, thinking about what can happen.
This causes so much anxiety because there are so many possibilities. Stop.
Anxiety stems from our minds wanting to be in the future but our physical body
is still in the present. We are
attempting to jump time, but we can’t – this causes our mind and body tension
known as ANXIETY. Anxiety prevents us from living because we are trying to
focus on the future. This creates unhappiness. Our souls is designed to live in
the now, being present, Enjoying the moment. If you have anxiety, practice the
mantra “Carpe Diem” which translates to
seize the day. Stop and smell the roses, become present and appreciate what is.
How I overcame these
obstacles and started living a more Zenful Life
Let go of the past
My biggest challenge and greatest lesson for 2016, I
learned, was I was very unforgiving. I have a memory of an elephant. If you
burn me once, that’s it, I never forget.
This was my biggest obstacle. Learning to accept the problem as it is
and not returning to what was. My advice
here is don’t try to relive the past or rationalize it. That was yesterday, let
it go. Today is a new day. Accept who
you are right now and be you. Be present. Treat today as a brand new day and
address the issue as it is.
DON’T GO IN CIRCLES WITH THE PAST.
Ego traps us into
yesterday, It loses its power when we are present. Being present is
uncomfortable for the ego, its quiet, its lonely but it is so healing. When we
learn to quiet the ego, we learn what true inner peace is. It is a gift.
Surrender
Let go of control and just surrender. When you feel out of
control or your full anxiety, surrender. Accept what you feel and just let
yourself bath in it. If you’re angry, feel angry. If you’re sad feel sad.
Accept what you’re feeling and let your body just be. Learn to surrender, when
the outside world is bursting out of control, the only way for your internal
environment to remain calm is to surrender.
How do we surrender? “ let that shit go” Anything that makes you
frustrated or uncomfortable, let that shit go. It is not running away from your
problems, it’s allowing the universe to unfold as it should.
It’s ok to be upset, It’s ok to be lazy, It’s
ok to lack motivation. The secret is that once you allow yourself to accept
these emotions ( surrender) , you will soon be able to come out of it. It’s
when we deny it, that we make ourselves feel bad for doing it. We turn this negative emotion into resentment
and we start to play the blame game.
Learn to surrender yourself. Your true power
lies in learning to let that shit go.
After a hard day at
work, It was really hard for me to let shit go, I would lay in bed , not
wanting to do anything, telling myself, I need to get up and do something
because I was ashamed that I let work drain me so much. What I learned from this internal battle was
that the more I felt bad for feeling how I felt, the more drained I felt. I
never allowed myself to just sit and be angry.
I didn’t allow myself to have a good cry because I felt weak. But to be
honest, it is so empowering to sit with the discomfort and just be. When I let myself be angry, sad or depressed, my soul found its power. I
didn’t like how it made me feel, so I decided in those moments,
“ I’m going to make a change,
One day I got tired of feeling that way so I changed”
Final words of wisdom
Awareness of us not
being present is a huge step. Feeling every emotion at the current moment is
very empowering. Don’t run or hide. Don’t try to find distractions in alcohol, drugs,
sex or any other activity hoping to numb the discomfort. Challenges are designed to awaken us. If we
don’t heed the calling, we go into a deeper sleep. Denial, Depression,
Unhappiness are signs of denial.
By being conscious
and present, we grow in power. Tapping into how you feel presently and allowing
yourself to bath in it, creates magic.
We can only learn the lessons we need to
empower us in the present.
Don’t live in yesterday or wait for tomorrow.
Learn to live today
and be present.
If anything rocks your calmness, let that shit
go.
Bath in the
discomfort and welcome the blessing.
Want to read more? Check out my article from 2014 to gain 6 helpful tips to help you on your journey towards more peacefulness.
